The Hard Truth: The future depends on your present

Over a year ago, when I heard that an old friend (she wasn’t a friend) was married, pregnant and abroad, I was overcome with shock. How? We’re the same age? How is she married and I’m not? But as time went by, more and more people in my year were getting married and having children, and I think it’s beautiful. But for some, it’s threatening and pressurising.  I see my future as bright as the sun, so close, yet so far, but I know of some people who are worrying about their blank vision like there’s no tomorrow.

What if I never find someone? You’re supposed to find someone at uni, but I’ve finished uni, WHAT WILL I DO

What am I even going to do with my degree? Why did I choose this. I’m never going to have a stable career

I HAVEN’T FOUND ANYONE YET

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Arts

Today I finished a gruelling essay that, although made me want to die, I really enjoyed writing. The subject I wrote it on is something I am extremely passionate about and the only reason I regret not starting it weeks ago is because if I did, I would have had more time to to completely destroy whoever is marking my work (unless they’re voting Britain First…in which case they’ll fail me instantly). But I’m lazy, and that took control of me. So I have a bone to pick with those people who talk shit about those of us who study arts subjects at university. You know – literature, philosophy, religion, theatre, music, photography, social sciences etc.
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My 500 Words, Day 5: Write What You Know

Oh my GOD  a photo of WOMAN THINGS oh my GOD better DELETE MY BLOG so diSGUSTING!(!(!!))
PMS. I’ll take all the painkillers with a fat duvet and a side of 2 cherry cokes with 5 cheesecakes please, also get the fuck over here and love me because I want to rip your head off with my teeth so I can cradle it like a baby.
The reason I started with TMI is because girls lack the TMI that they need. Looking back, as a girl who was still learning about what it means to be a woman, I didn’t want people tiptoeing around a sensitive topic and making sure everything is man-friendly. I needed TMI, I needed detail and brutal truth. We don’t need those tampon adverts showing us that women are bright and happy whilst half bleeding to death, we need the realities of waking up and being too cautious to move out of bed in case you paint the sheets red, the stomach cramps that make you pass out, the fact that going through something natural is so damn expensive.
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My 500 Words, Day 3: Get up early

I woke up at 9something am this morning, which isn’t ‘early’ for most, but it’s early for me on a day that I don’t have uni or work. I woke up first because my phone was ringing, but since I never pick up phonecalls, I left it. They can leave a message if it’s important, or they can call 3 more times. But then the house phone rang, and let me tell you something about my mum.
SHE CAN’T LIE TO PEOPLE WHEN THEY ASK FOR ME. She never called in school for me when I was sort of sick, so my dad did it in his white man voice. She will always ask someone if they want to speak to me on the phone next when I’m in the room, even though I CLEARLY say no. And this morning was no different. Happily thinking I’d avoided a phonecall, I almost fall back asleep, but then I hear the house phone, followed by my mother saying “yes, hold on please” over footsteps, and I could only clear my throat as hard as I could hoping to God that my silent slumber wouldn’t prevent me from speaking. My mother comes into my room, WAKES ME UP and shoves a phone in my face. And then I have to speak with my croaky-ass just woke up voice and a brain that hasn’t even stirred yet, so I have no idea of what I’m saying. On the phone was my dentist calling to ask if everything is okay after my appointment yesterday [how cute]. A 10 second phonecall, but because they were just so nice I wasn’t mad.
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My 500 Words, Day 4: Learn to free write. [Brussels]

“Whoever kills a soul…it is as if he had slain mankind entirely. And whoever saves one – it is as if he had saved mankind entirely” [Quran, Surah Al-Ma’idah (5:32)]

So in light of the Brussels attack, which ISIS claim responsibility for, according to European  governments, I’ll just free write on what I always talk about. I could be a conspiracy theorist and talk about how European governments orchestrate these attacks themselves on weak buildings and bomb-proof passports, claiming to KNOW it’s ISIS, just to wage another war on terror. But hopefully we should already know this. Does nobody find it funny that there’s an attack on EU central right before the upcoming EU referendum…? I mean Britain need to stay and assist their neighbours after this brutal attack and and create a strong Europe v Muslims ISIS, right? Assuming that ISIS itself does have an agenda, Ima tell you what this agenda is, and hopefully you should then see that, in fact, the Western governments are ISIS.

What the West AND ISIS want you to see
What the West AND ISIS want you to see [source]
First of all, ISIS is anything BUT Islamic, something I can’t believe people don’t know by now. And as much as the West likes to talk about how Islam is a problem, Muslims are violent and oppress their women, Muslims know nothing about human rights, Muslims are scary, blah bloody blah, let me take a split second to tell every one of you to do some thorough research on your corrupt and shitty governments, since too many of you are blind to the immoral greed they practice. The West creates Al Qaeda and ISIS but can’t handle them when it gets out of hand! You wanted to just create one small reason for the ‘war on terror’ but years later you fail to recognise that…you literally…created this….war…just to have a war….and now you don’t wanna deal with it….I cannot get over the extent to which these nations are willing to go to further their own interests and agendas. To the extent of harming their own people whilst pretending it’s an enemy, just to have an excuse to attack said enemy and anybody associated with their name? (I.e all Muslims). I’m not saying ISIS don’t have a goal. I’m saying the West is disgustingly exploiting this situation. Anyway.
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