10/06/2017
Today’s prompt: A new thing to try
Starting to work towards a completely new future that I’m not prepared for.
Okay, let’s start small. I realise these posts are just a way to distract myself.
I want to travel. I don’t travel. I have never been anywhere except two family holidays which don’t count because I was young.
I wrote a couple of posts before about how important it is to explore the city you’re in, how important it is to build up the friendships you have in those places. Ironically, I didn’t follow those words after that.
But now I can, and I will. I’ll start by fully enjoying London, and then hopefully, unless the political climate worsens, everywhere else in Europe (except France, fuck France). Either with willing friends or by myself. I want to go, just go, I want long weekends in Austria, Sweden, Germany. I’ll even go to Morocco. I just want to get out of this country for a while, this city. I want to get away from all the toxicity around me; I don’t want a fancy hotel and an expensive trip. I just need a flight and somewhere to sleep.
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Shoot a hole in the sky [June Journal – top priorities]
9/06/2017
Today’s prompt: Your top priorities
Today is a shit day. So God’s work is here, telling me that my next prompt means I have to focus on my priorities right now. I don’t have the will to write an interesting introduction either, so let’s get straight to it because life is shit, life is shit.
Physical health
I want to get my sleeping pattern back in check, I want to eat properly and I want to train even more and even harder than I used to. Once you’ve passed your teens it is vital to look after your health – you can’t keep staying up late snacking and drinking energy drinks. And once you’ve passed a certain age, your metabolism slows down dramatically and you get fat and lazy. Basically. So why wait for that age to begin (which is harder to do), when you can get the ball rolling years beforehand?
Financial stability
I’m graduating next month. These past two weeks were supposed to be used for writing cover letters and applying for jobs, but Ramadan has me so lethargic and unless you’re looking for a standard part-time job, you need to focus. I haven’t really decided what I’m doing yet. I had to quit my job and I’ve been a student without income for the past few months, which means for the first time ever I am worried about money and will be struggling for fucks fucking sake. You have bills to pay and no way to pay them. But it was my own fault. Even though I’m in a shit place and I’m months behind, I guess now I have my degree behind me. On the one hand, I want to kickstart a career. But on the bigger hand I don’t want to kickstart a career. I kinda do want a part time job so that I can get some income to pay for my outgoings whilst I work on something I enjoy. A life in an office isn’t something I want. Read more
VOTE CONSERVATIVE OUT
Hello
So I’m not going to lie, but I feel like the election today will be rigged in favour of the tories. Theresa May staged the London attacks and she WILL rig these elections. That’s who she is.
Nevertheless, they can’t possibly do it if a blinding majority votes the Tories out, right?
If you haven’t yet voted today, please VOTE and vote TACTICALLY.
Everybody is saying vote labour, and yes we WANT labour to win. But in order for that to happen, we must vote the Tories OUT. The only way to do is by voting tactically, which may mean NOT voting for labour. Please visit www.tactical2017.com to find out who you need to vote for in order for Labour to win.
I, too, would feel wrong not voting for Labour but it goes like this. If your area is divided between Conservative and Green Party, you’ll need to vote for Green Party because voting Labour would be a wasted vote! You need to rock the boat AGAINST tories in your area so that they lose. If you live in Twickenham, for example, you need to vote Lib Dem because they are the biggest threat to the Tories, not Labour.
Vote for education, vote for healthcare, vote for the inclusion of the students, the elderly and the disabled.
Don’t let the terrorist supporting, greedy, lying, selfish and idiotic witch Theresa May win. She cut the police, she can’t keep us safe, she can’t help us move forward, she will ruin us. She will ensure that the UK remains a target for terrorism because she FUNDS the very people who support terrorism.
You have until 10pm to change everybody’s future for the better.
You will never love me again
I’m just trying to find a friend that I can kick back with.
Maybe listen to Fleetwood Mac for hours whilst getting shit done. Write music. Sing songs with so much passion at the top of our lungs and convince ourselves we wrote them.
Or take some mescaline (thanks, Kurt) and see who can come up with the wildest stories (whilst listening to Jeff Buckley) and draw. Stare at the ceiling and talk about literally everything. Rant and talk shit about the people we hate. Tell them my struggles and not be judged or ridiculed or ignored. Someone who will be there whether it’s 4pm or 4am.
I want to be high as hell when I tell them something that’s bothering me, and they’ll be high as yike defending me to the death and coming up, in the utmost seriousness, with an elaborate plan to kill whoever pissed me off. And we’ll both believe it’ll happen even though later on we’ll laugh about it. But they weren’t joking and I’d have to stop them from doing something insane.
Reserve Sundays for formula 1, obviously.
It’s me. I’m describing myself.
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The Hard Truth: The future depends on your present
Over a year ago, when I heard that an old friend (she wasn’t a friend) was married, pregnant and abroad, I was overcome with shock. How? We’re the same age? How is she married and I’m not? But as time went by, more and more people in my year were getting married and having children, and I think it’s beautiful. But for some, it’s threatening and pressurising. I see my future as bright as the sun, so close, yet so far, but I know of some people who are worrying about their blank vision like there’s no tomorrow.
“What if I never find someone? You’re supposed to find someone at uni, but I’ve finished uni, WHAT WILL I DO“
“What am I even going to do with my degree? Why did I choose this. I’m never going to have a stable career“
“I HAVEN’T FOUND ANYONE YET“